2:59pm today, I sit here in philcoa internet shop. What happened? A lot of things happened and it was so fast. When God tells us to do something, and we cannot comprehend why or how we would do that. DO IT and God will reveal the rest.
I said I had a revelation this 3:30 at dawn (see previous entry). God told me to do something I thought I wouldn’t do now or even at a sooner later in my life.
I never had a closure last night, she ended up telling me that she still hoped for our happy ending but she’s staying with the guy. That’s outrageous! I thought to myself, that's not letting go! But the revelation was not yet there because I was so full of my convictions.
The revelation this dawn told me that I need a proper closure. He had prepared me for this, but Lord! I've already surrendered her to you. And it hit me... Exactly, now that I have the faith to give her up to God, it is time to take her back and fight for her. This is the time to move, not move on. I asked, Lord! How is this different from the first time when I tried to fight for her, and he said to me, Today you are with me.
My faith is in you my God and I may not understand why now but I'm going to do it. Please make it perfect.
I went to her, but she was still taking a bath so I went to claret chapel for a while to be refreshed on God's word but of course I'm vigilant to filter the preaching. She decided to go to claret too. The word was great, it talked about those who exalts himself will be humbled and those who are humble will be exalted. I said to God, today no pride will come out of my mouth.
I smirked when I heard about mama mary and she noticed it and said, I miss that smirk...
After d sermon, she asked me for some coffee to match the three krispy kreme donuts I brought. There's no coffee near there house so I said let's go to mcdo. We had some small talks while we eat donuts and drink brewed coffee while listening to terrible music playlist of mcdo.
After the small talks, I knew I had to say what I needed to say so I talked to God... Lord, this is it! And when I was about to say it, the music, out of the blue, suddenly turned into a love song, Torete! Hahaha! Lord, ang galing mo naman! We both smiled and I said every word that God wanted me to say (see previous entry). After that she told me a story, how she secretly cried and learned to cry without tears, that she texts me everytime in secret and send it to her housemate instead of sending it to me.
And love songs after love songs played, and I watch her eyes cry in tears and I cried too and we both laughed mildly. Then I shared many revelations during the past month, and I laid down my plans for her and she was smiling perfectly as how God said it to me.
I asked God, Lord, still no closure? She didn't even say yes or no. So I asked her for the second time, and she told me another story...
How she prays to God to give her the promised one, and she said that I'm the promised one. I said to her For the first time, I pursued you. Hindi mo ako naunahan. She talked how she hated herself for getting ahead of me, for not waiting, for going with another guy and I comforted her.
Lord, wala parin sya sagot... So I asked her for the third time, Let go of him and do not worry nor have any regret, I'll fight for you and I'll be there for you. I will lead you, yes, something i've never done in my life, I'll lead you and share the purpose with you for God and we cried even more, but we don't care even if we were amidst the crowd who were having breakfast at mcdo. We clearly heard in one table that they were talking about hopeless romantics, and there were lots of ideas, and I think they were talking about us too. We smiled and said, 'yeah, we are hopeless romantic freaks' and again we laughed mildly as tears gush down our face.
For the fourth time, God give me a sign. I asked her again, (name), for the fourth time i'll ask you again. What is your answer? and she told me that she always imagined me pursuing her. And I asked, is that a Yes? All the surprises in the world combined is no match how surprised I was when she nodded and I was like, WooooooooooW God! You are the best thing that ever happened to me.
We cried another bucket, and catch up with some stuff, and exchanged corny lines. As in, very corny lines, don't ask. We laughed and suddenly a storm came... it was him, her you know what. We didn't notice that it was already 12nn and her EX-bf is calling her coz she was supposed to be in glorietta with him. And he's coming, and I trembled but I have faith in God and I still won't lay a scratch on this guy unless he hurt my love.
With every second that passed, my heart beat faster and faster and I'm talking to God and preparing myself to get hit for the first time if ever.
...Wait, stop the flashback, just now she texted, 'san kaw? Pls pick me up'
...I'm back to the internet shop because she didn't say where she is, men! Nway, continue blogging... Where was i...
Ah yeah, he was comming! And she decided to stay with me but she needed to wiwi, and Mcdo's cr was out of service, chowking 's cr was being cleaned... Lord! Reveal it to me! That cr that is. So I told her, 'kaya mo pa ihold?'... ok wait, you might wonder, why include this detail? It's important, you'll see. Anyway, I said 'magpaphotocopy muna tayo and head to your dorm' and we went to the photocopy/internet shop, where I am now, writing this blog using my cellphone.
And I was like wow, ang galing may CR sa net shop, thank God! And she went wiwi and just as she entered the cr, guess who came? Yes he, the big show with eyes burning with murderous intent when he saw me. He said in a loud annoying voice, BAKIT KA NANDITO? NASAN SI (name)?! and I calmly replied, nasa CR....
He knocked and kicked the CR, which costed me 500 bucks because he broke it. You owe me 500, you monster who doesn't know how to enter a CR, kaya nga may susi eh. It made a scene and everyone stopped talking and there was silence. He shouted, BAKIT ANTAGAL NYA? KANINA PA SYA NASA LOOB AH! and it was just like 10 seconds had passed and I calmly replied in a condescending voice, Hello?! Kaka CR lang nya. and the owner (ate tens, close na kami) said, oo nga kakapasok lang nya while she calls for backup because she was scared. The guy grew impatient and went to where I standing and shouted again, BAKIT KA ANDITO, BAKIT KASAMA MO SYA? and I replied, hindi ka na nya mahal, let go of her and he replied with contempt, IKAW ANG HINDI NYA MAHAL and I thought to myself, isip bata ba to? parang nakikipag kompetisyon ah and I told him, edi itanong mo sa kanya! Hahaha! In your face, kido!
He wrecked the door and she opened it and went it, and they were there and I quickly said, ATE!! SUSE!!! Akina Suse!! And ate is getting more and more afraid so he instructed the big guys to get them out of the CR, and the guy went out dragging her with him, hurting her and grabbing her arms, and I raised my tone and I grabbed and removed his arm from hers and said, Bro, don't hurt her, if you want to talk, ask her nicely. And he grabbed the important papers the (name) needs for review so that she will be forced to come with him, and I really had to say it to him BRO! PARA KA NAMANG BATA! Ibalik mo nga yang mga yan, hindi sa kanya yan! and I think he realized it and returned the papers.
I thought he was just like going outside to talk so I sneaked in and followed them covertly then I saw him again dragging her and I saw that they were going to ride a cab, oh crap! with much adrenaline, I ran faster than ever and I was able to stop the door of the taxi and told that guy, DON'T HURT HER! and I let them go because I want to give that guy his right to talk to her.
And now I wait here, where the confrontation happened. I feel so helpless, I tried to search UP for them but I didn't find them. All I can do is pray and have faith in God that she won't be hurt. And I texted our friends to pray in faith with me.
After waiting five excruciating hours in the internet shop she texted that she's not hurt but to come for her and bring a guard because he's holding a KNIFE. Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? Monster FREAK! So I quickly said to ate, Ate, emergency, my friend is in danger, do you know where (name of the place) is? and she googled it and we called the realtor but we didn't get any information so I just said, I'll ask the taxi driver to take me there. So I hurriedly got a cab and went to the place, and I told the driver what's happening and I need to get there as fast as I can, and manong was like so ready and became like james bond and he was so into it, with the drama, suspense and excitement! But the driver didn't know where the place is so we had to ask so many people including MMDA haha, but no one knew where it is!!!! Then we went to some tricylce cab drivers and he told me to run to that other side and ask them, finally! A concrete direction! And i hastily went back to the cab and told him where to go.
When we reached the subdivision, I ask the guard in panic, Manong guard! We need help, my friend is in danger, may balisong daw yung lalake and the guard was calm and went in circles thinking, COME ON!!! I thought to myself, and what's worse is his reply. Ummm, kaano ano nyo po ba sya? and I said kaibigan po! And he said, you can't go inside, this is our homeowners association, and I wanted to crush them for having no sense of urgency.
Manong driver told me, hindi tayo papasukin, kuha tayo police, and I was like talaga? papasukin tayo pag may polis? So we went outside again and saw the persons we needed the most that time, and dig this, they were not the police, they were the AFP! Oh yeah, three of them with big RIFLES and all, and I thought to myself, grabe tamang tama to, I think matatakot na sya sa mga to. These men are way cooler than the police.
And I told the emergency and they were like so into it to! They were preparing their guns, and moving to the driver seat, and told me, sige tara! Saan ba to and I told them where it is, and I went inside their hum-vee. Just as the driver is ready to go, she texted, palabas na ko and I was like, what? Sayang naman tong mga AFP, hehehe, but I explained to them that I think the situation was already under control.
So I got another cab to fetch her, and told big, old, and white-haired manong that it's an emergency and he asked what kind of emergency, my friend is in danger and her bf has a knife, and manong said Ay baka mapahamak pa ko dyan hahahaha! But I explained to him that everything's ok, so we went and saw her walking outside the subdivision. The guy's family came because the guard talked to them (they were not so bad after all).
She cried a lot when we were riding the cab, and asked me to take her to a pastor in ubelt, so we went there and learned that he already went home. So we went to galleria to have dinner with our close friends.
That monster freak is not worth it, during my 5 hours stay in the internet shop talking to the owner, she mentioned to me his future wife will be unlucky, sad and battered, because if this is the way he acts now, how much more after marriage. And replied yeah, and thought, it's good that it's not my love who will be trapped in his monstrosity.
We just had a real picture how ugly a non-christian relationship is... he makes me sick. May this teach us a valuable lesson, and I believe that this happened for a reason, to reach that brokeness because God wants us to really learn something from it and not just say 'I know'.
Mark this day as the day that she got saved from a monster freak. An unbeliever who threatened her with a knife and ready to commit suicide.
I am moved by what happened today, this by far is the most exciting day that God has given to me, and He made scenes which I thought I only existed in the movies. I love you God, thank you for delivering her from harm and I can enjoy new moments with her. I love her so much, and I won't realize it if I didn't follow what you said to me.
With what happened today, I don't know how in the world I've managed to pull everything off. It's beyond my wildest dreams. It's just God and a faith that can move mountains. Wohooo! Again I thank you for giving me movie-like experience, You're amazing.
So it's US again and I will love you more than I've ever loved you. The things that happened made us closer to each other. We're both surprised how things turned out, I didn't even plan for this... I only had Case One and Case Two and that was it, I never thought there was this Case Three!!! Amazing, I thought I knew everything but still You surprised me with all of these. I love it!!! Thank you for giving me the opportunity to move by faith.
...but I'm asking God, did I break my convictions? If someone knows the answer, kindly text me, I believe God will use you.
